I realized that I have not been able to share in my story with.those FWII Members who do not know me and those of you I have been able to connect with yet. My story was going to shared during the Webinar last Saturday but we ran out of time so here it is.
I have been a Greeter here on FWII for a while now and absolutely love all beautiful beings I have connected with. I welcome each and every one of you with an open heart. I look forward to becoming friends with you all.
This story was most challenging to compose as the pain is all still very raw and just beginning to heal. There is much more to share with you all so we may learn, heal, and grow through each other but I will go in Mimi steps. I hope and pray this story reaches those who need to hear my experiences, be enlightened and inspired (inspirited).I also have this story on my profile page.
My S2S FWII Story
After I lost my daughter to cancer last year my dear friend Red Hawk woman came to my side as I called for help from Creator. She introduced me to Phil Lane Jr., a very extraordinary man of incredible insight and unwavering strength and compassion. He performed the spirit bundle ceremony for my daughter. I was incredibly honored to tend the rocks for the ceremony and sweat. I definitely started earning my name Firewoman. Little did I realize what an incredible journey Phil would send me on. I am now caretaker of my daughter, Mimi's spirit bundle and her alter. After the ceremony he came out smiling and so full of love that I knew deep in my heart that my daughter was with him in spirit and continues to walk with all of us in spirit along this beautiful journey we are on. Phil told me a number of encouraging things told to him by the Creator. Among these he offered me a scholarship to attend Certiport Training called Skills to Succeed or IC3. When I started classes, I struggled so very hard to pick myself up out of the mud my face had been shoved into by a few raw deals I had been dealt in life. You see, I am also a domestic violence survivor, now twice removed. The first time it took me 13 years to stand up to my ex-husband...when my children became the target I could not allow such cruelty to continue, so I laid my life down so I could get us all out alive. The knife never struck my heart...I got away with a head injury causing major memory loss from a previous incident with him....my sons are safe and sound and without harm. The second time, which did not take as long to realize and act on, came about with my recent ex-partner. As he sustained a broken heart like the rest of us when Mimi died, his heart started growing back crooked and dark. Not handling her death well at all, he became more mentally and verbally abusive. He had grown so angry at me for being strong and often blamed me, us, for all his pain...his rage became so deafening it was hard to concentrate on anything. When he crossed the line and went too far one day, I told him he needed to leave and find his own path. I could not allow the abuse.That took all the strength of my ancestors to stand up for what is right. I hope and pray both abusers find healing, peace and forgiveness...just not at our expense and not with our lives. They need to travel their own paths, not follow ours with harassing power plays and trying to further hurt us from a distance. We deserve love and respect unconditionally and refuse to be abused any longer. After this traumatic experience, my face back in the mud, I needed to pick myself up and start fixing all that others had broken in my life. This time, especially with the love and support of my two extraordinary teenage sons, I started focusing on positive goals like S2S classes. With much gratitude to my S2S instructor Steve Hardman and Certiport Coordinator Michelle Scott who have given me limitless encouragement and inspiration to be true to myself and pursue my destined path I pushed onward. They have been such a shining star to light my way along Creator's path from a most desolate place I had found myself. Watching the wonderful journey of Phil and FWII has been a driving force and inspiration for me. Although it has taken me some time to complete my S2S training, with many obstacles to overcome along the way, I have just recently finished my exams and am now a certified IC3 instructor. I have shown my sons that we can mend and grow, in a good way, and things can change if we just focus on the positive side of life. We can create beautiful scenery for ourselves. I have never felt such warmth, love and completeness as I do now among my relatives, this world and beyond. I have the strength of my ancestors, all my relations, and I do not stand alone.
I am also a Greeter on FWII.net where I have met the most beautiful and inspiring beings. Creator may put our destined path before us but it is up to us to choose our scenery...positive or negative...light or dark....hope or despair...love or hate. I choose positive, light, hope, and love. Something my path, my daughter, and my relatives have shown me and hopefully I can pass these treasures on to others along this path we are all walking together. I hope to be a light for others who need it as we all do at times in our lives. I am humbly honored to be part of Certiport and FWII. I promise to be the best I can be and I look forward to helping our relatives soar above the struggles we encounter. To be who we are truly meant to be here on FWII by showing how to become part of this beautiful web Creator has helped us weave. We will then be able to connect, share, heal and shine together. We remain and we go on! For all those before us and all those yet to come.
Hope and love, Firewoman